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02 June 2011 @ 01:44 am
I'm sorry, i really should be conjuring up this awesome kick-ass front view concert report.
But I've received devastating news last night when I touched down.
One of my good friend's mother passed away.
It came as a sudden shock for me, as I had no clue (since I was out of town) that she had been hospitalized.
But even more so for the family, as she was an active, strong, vibrant woman.

I've never met her personally, but I heard about how joyful and pleasant she was.
And of course, her cooking's awesome. He took lots of food snaps of the suppers she cooked for him.
I had the honor of tasting it once, she made us (at the company), an awesome chinese styled pork knuckles in black vinegar.

I just came back from the wake and it breaks my heart, I was so close to tears.
I don't know how to contemplate a loss of a kin that close.
I know all I can say are comforting words, "I'm sorry for your loss, if you need me, call. I'm here for you."
But I just don't know if that is enough, it just doesn't seem enough.
The pain is going to be there, for a long time, if not forever.
I said to my friend to stay strong, and to take care.
But I know its got to hurt, it has to...

This is the worse kind of goodbye.
One that you didn't get to say, enough times.
But then again, you can never spend "enough" time with a person you love.
All the time you have is never going to be enough.

Life is... such isn't it? 

I'll take a rain-check on the report today, but don't worry it's all too fresh in my head.
I need to crash right now, i'm officially exhausted.

Love you all. <3

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Current Mood: sad
26 May 2011 @ 03:18 am
 Well not quite!
I still have some stuff only to be packed in the morning.
Meanwhile the iphone is syncing, and i'm trying to grab my last bit of criminal minds before my eyes get too tired.
Last minute packing isn't fun, I hope i have enough clothes. 


I'll update when I can!
and psst, i finally am gonna be able to go to a L'arcafe or so I heard!

I'm thrilled!
Current Mood: tiredtired
19 May 2011 @ 02:03 pm

Yes! Yes! Yes! Yes! Yes!!!!!!!!!!

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09 May 2011 @ 05:31 pm


This is him in season 1 and then in later seasons.
Anyone who watches Criminal Minds should know the geeky adorable Genius Doctor.
I'm now totally obsessed with the show and I can't wait to go home and watch more!
Somebody needs to quell my reading of Hotchner/Reid fanfic haha!

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05 May 2011 @ 06:50 pm

I want to be skinny.
I want to be thinner, I want to be able to eat whatever I like and not feel bad about it.
I want to be able to wear dresses and pull them off.
I want to be called pretty, maybe.

This is basically a "I don't look good enough." low morale day. T.T

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19 April 2011 @ 12:59 am
 *dramatic pause*

My life feels like a Mindsweeper game. 
One wrong move and "BAM!!"; so I calculate my moves, make sure my next step isn't wrong. 
I take a step I feel should be the correct one and again, "BAMMMM!!!!" 
And I'm like adsl;ajlandsaknanksmdasmlmdslandksnakknaknnnnn!!!!!! TO MOVE OR NOT TO MOVE DAMNIT!!!!!

That is my lighthearted view. 

If it was my emotional view, I think it would be a whole bundle of sap. 
I wish someone or some sign would point me in the general correct direction so I can make my move. 
And this direction better produce some fucking good results. I've had too much of no-result or bad results. 
Right now, I'm a classic example of how not to reflect emotions too much on the outside. 


Current Mood: blahblah
17 April 2011 @ 08:11 am

New hair guiz!
Even shorter than ever, hmm and some browns as well.
I'm quite pleased!

I'm up and early on a Sunday which is rare on all accounts. Going for a morning walk/sightseeing with my colleagues! I'm just there to take some photos though haha!
Treetop walk here I come! And yay!I'm excited about the suspension bridge!

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I cannot give up.
Every time I stop to even just go over how difficult this is, it only seems more difficult. 

I think being at work helps, I think being with people helps. 
I think being out helps. 
Letting my mind take me away, with the music ringing in my ears, in the confines of my room. 
Deaf to the storm that is brewing outside. 
Funny how my rock-n-roll music is my relief. 
Anywhere is good, anywhere but here. 
Just anywhere that I will not have the space in even a small corner of my mind to think about this. 
Any night that the drama does not repeat itself like an abashed sorry record is a good night. 

There is no past to look back to, there is no other way but to keep moving, there's only a move-forward.
Somehow I'll make it somewhere, someway, this road has got to lead to a destination. 
I don't know what's around the bend, but I know i've got to make around the bend,
I've got to get myself out of this wasteland. 

I cannot give up. 
I will not give up.
Something's bound to happen.
Something good's bound to come my way.  
Someday these dark clouds will be dyed in the hues of the rainbow's colors; they surely must. 
Current Mood: contemplative
06 April 2011 @ 12:23 pm

Someone tell me again how people who are unable to visualize basics like spacings and sizes are in fields that require them to visualize?

It's like asking a person who doesn't know what a steering wheel is to take part in an F1 race.
Crash and burn scenario.

I am seriously appalled.

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05 April 2011 @ 10:26 am

Just one of those days when I feel like slacking off at work. Bwahhhhhh!!! ;____;

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